Hi all. This is maybe my first blog post in years. So bear with me if my way of writing a little bit rusty.
I am an ordinary man. I live by myself. I come from a middle class family of 5 children. Actually my blood sibling is only 2. The rest is a step sister, and 1 comes from same father. My mom passed away when I was 8 from a breast cancer. My father remarried 2 years later (I think.)
I will skip you with all the details of my life time, which has brought me to this point. I will try to be as general as I can, but without leaving out anything important enough to be written.
I came from a family that’s; compared to maybe your family; is considered dysfunctional family. I experienced things in the past that maybe been pushed down inside my subconsciousness, and makes me who I am today. Not that long time ago I’ve just realized that I am unhappy. Been aware of it since mid-college. Ever since then I was in endless relentless effort to make myself happy. I had my ups and downs. In the times where the people around me was happy, I wasn’t. I was considered late about appreciating things that makes people happy. I am an unhappy man.
Until one time my experience in Twitter, where at one particular conversation with a person I followed. I don’t know her personally. But when she tweets about being in a down-low, I replied with a consolation in under 140 characters, just out of randomness. Then she was cheered up and by doing that I was also happy (thank you Muse!) Then it strikes to me and give me inspiration what I want to do is to make people happier through what I do as a Web Developer (a Startup company, more on that later.) In the end it will make me happy. and we all happy together.
Along the way I’m trying to make other people happy, and also got mixed up about falling in love. Yes, I have a not-so-ideal family and planned hard to have one of my own, so I can create happiness environment in my own family. In effort to do that I got confused about consoling and make people happy, and wooing and dropping lines to people. That might build me some kind of reputation, which I can’t control, I can’t help it. I just want to make people happy, and myself happy. But in the same time I want to fall in love with my future wife, and create a happy family. Yes, I sometimes (many times!) pushed too hard to make people happy, even disregarding my reputation. Maybe my subconscious pushed me, I just want to be happy, by pushing it too hard. Maybe to some people it’s too close for comfort (annoying!) And for that, to whom it may concerned, I am sorry. I’m just a human being. Fame and celebrityhood is never my goal.
I just want to be happy.
I want to make other people happy (and myself,) grow my own happy family.